Feelings

Feelings are weird...but we all have these and it's just part of our lives.

Lately I have been having very weird and mixed emotions and feelings.

Starting with family..As you might know I live with my grandparents, because my mum & dad are divorced and my relationship with them isn't the best...I basically don't talk to them and my best, best friend is my big sister who I really adore and she means the world to me.I seriously couldn't imagine my life without her...So, I have great feelings against her, but my mother and father...I just feel like I am want to push them away and they make me very uncomfortable and I don't enjoy spending time them..

I don't have the most faith in myself but luckily my friends mostly do and that seriously means a lot, even when I don't show it.. I think it's awesome to think that even if you think you are the worst person in the world then there are friends who still see good in you and they support you...They are with you when you have the worst time, but also when you have the best time...they are here to make your life good and happy.
Lately I have been talking a lot with certain friends and I feel like I want to hold them close to myself and not let go.I just couldn't imagine my life without them...and then there are friends who I have weird feelings against...I mean few who I really hate and I just can't stand them...and then there are people who...have so much power against you...Like..I guess it's kinda love hate relationship...and we'll see where all of that takes us :)

So because it's hard school year right now then there are so much stress so often, that I just wanna bury myself in the sand.And because I live with 5 other people then it's hard...I'd like to study for exams but people are so noisy and it's hard...so I have weird feelings to them because I'd like to yell at them to shut up but I know it's my problem and I just need to calm down and take things easy...but it's really hard...It's easier to write that..So I just need to stay calm, understand others and actually why not to study in library :)

So, we all need time...we need to let our feelings out, take things easy and just stay calm :)