I think this post has been in the making for a year now...
When I was younger I did athletics...I think I did for like a year or something, but then I gave up...why? I actually don't know...I remember they wanted me back..they very did, but I said no. So this where that ended...
I've been fan of running...I actually like going out for a run and run fast like 60m...I like it. I've actually been told from coaches that I look like a runner..But in PE I hate it...I hate PE lessons, I really do..I hate everything about them. But I have found that going out for just a run is such a great feeling and refreshing for me. I started going for a 5 km runs, but this year I have realized that I am actually able to run more like 7 km, I know it still doesn't sound a lot but for me like I am trying to increase it, because again one weird life goal...to run a marathon.
The thing I've realized is...I love working out alone..or with a very great friend. I am not a fan when there are lots of people around me. I'd love to go to some classes, but then I have this anxiety that eeh my techniques aren't actually that great and I am going to stay home.
I am not writing this to say that oh I am so fit, haha I am not, nor not to force someone...it's just to say what I've discovered and how my little i don't know journey has been.
At some point I wanted to workout, because I wanted to lose weight so badly...I did it only for that..I forced it, but well you know usually it's not going to work if you really force it...You have to feel it. So yeah it did not last very long.
I think all my need to work out started last summer, thanks to Carly Rowena. I started to following her on Instagram and she did 7 day challenge, where there was a circuit to do every day. And I did it, felt pretty proud and this is how it all began. I started running, I walk quite a lot anyway, doing some workout videos.
I am not quite sure why I started it...suddenly I had the huge need or the want to move myself and do something...I felt so inspired..and there were sooo many motivation inside me.
Then when I had done the week challenge it showed me that you might need only 19 minutes...and yes you do have that time in your day, just put your phone down. After I had completed it...even though some days were hard, I felt so proud of myself after that so I wanted to do more!
I decided to search into videos, some pictures, some old ones I had written down...and I started to want to push myself..I knew I could do it. Maybe if not the exact exercise, then modified for sure. So I didn't want to give up so easily. Also forced myself to put strength to my arms and do full time push ups, in the middle of summer I could do 20 easily, it was actually such a proud moment.
I got actually so into it like doing it every day sounded normal for me, working out every day seemed normal...it was like part of me..But it actually showed me that I've been so lazy before..Why didn't I do it earlier? It's so simple, the feeling after doing it is amazing...I started feeling like it was that part of the day when I could have me time, I focus on myself, it helps me hold my head clear and it's just so refreshing...I so get it when people say they work out to avoid stress.. it is such a great stress reliever.
So...I started doing it more intense, when I had a little argument...and I needed to put my anger into something...working out was amazing for that...The bur-pees...oh, it was so hard but I put all my anger into ,my legs and hands and did it. I still hate them tho.
And if you are actually so into it, you want to do it, you like doing it and when you see that your body has changed too and your favorite pair of jeans are a little too big for you..whaaat?! That I think gives you extra motivation to do something and after you notice something little, I think you just don't want to stop.
But then school started again and things got busy, again. And I struggled a lot to find the energy...I did a little something but not really..I was into my bed and Tv series. Also my boyfriend asked me several times "So hows your working out going?" Like he knew how much I did and loved it. Yeah well, let's not talk about it :d
Then because I say all the time I am fat he challenged me to do 1 month challenge, 100 squats and abs every day. I think it was around December. And I think he didn't expect that, but I was like "Fuck it I am gonna do it!" And I did it! It was a bit annoying..but well. And I did some progress and at some days I did some extra workouts as well and with that I kindaaa realized I was fatter than I was in the summer and it took me down. Then me and my bf had a little spa weekend coming up...trust me I had a massive motivation to move myself. And I did. It was in March, and I did get fitter.
School got hard again, but time to time I still found time to workout and I think since that I´ve been pretty into it. And I've been loving it. And I have gained so much confidence, I love walking around in my underwear, I love looking at myself. I´ve gottes arm muscles that I love touching and seeing that houuly, I've never seen you. I still don't like my thighs tho, haha but we'll get there :d And my belly..that used to be bigger, I can see the abs if I tense. I love wearing just sports bra..That is something that makes me want to move even more. Because it gives me confidence and happiness like anything else.
Also in school, I had to do 100 m run. And I think I was second in my glass. My teacher was surprised and I was amazed, but funny thing is my start when a bit wrong so I know I could actually do even better. But then people were away and me and 3 girls went to Tallinn's school competition with that...I was there, doing practise my babes saw it one day as well and told to my bff that he has never seen me running so fast and that he was proud. And I was proud. Sadly I ended up with an injury...So I couldn't normally move myself for like 2 weeks, and it broke me. I got so stressed because of that, I wanted to move myself. And then one day my bf took me out on a 10 km bike ride, got a cramp but after this day I was like "Fuck it, I might get hurt, but I going to fight trought it, because I want to move myself"
And now it's summer. I am all good, try to move myself every day, or every other day. If I am busy then some quick 20 minute HIT workout, or just some abs or something diffrent.
So I think I can say that I've fell in love with working out..yes, I admit it might be and probably is some kind of wave, that I will leave if things get hectic again but...as for now I am so happy that I started moving myself..It actually feels so great, so strong and makes me feel happy!
Seriously moving yourself seems hard, but once when you do it and when you actually finish a workout...the feeling is incredible. It really does make me so much more happier :)
“Wow, I really regret that workout – Said No One Ever. ... “
When I was younger I did athletics...I think I did for like a year or something, but then I gave up...why? I actually don't know...I remember they wanted me back..they very did, but I said no. So this where that ended...
I've been fan of running...I actually like going out for a run and run fast like 60m...I like it. I've actually been told from coaches that I look like a runner..But in PE I hate it...I hate PE lessons, I really do..I hate everything about them. But I have found that going out for just a run is such a great feeling and refreshing for me. I started going for a 5 km runs, but this year I have realized that I am actually able to run more like 7 km, I know it still doesn't sound a lot but for me like I am trying to increase it, because again one weird life goal...to run a marathon.
The thing I've realized is...I love working out alone..or with a very great friend. I am not a fan when there are lots of people around me. I'd love to go to some classes, but then I have this anxiety that eeh my techniques aren't actually that great and I am going to stay home.
I am not writing this to say that oh I am so fit, haha I am not, nor not to force someone...it's just to say what I've discovered and how my little i don't know journey has been.
At some point I wanted to workout, because I wanted to lose weight so badly...I did it only for that..I forced it, but well you know usually it's not going to work if you really force it...You have to feel it. So yeah it did not last very long.
I think all my need to work out started last summer, thanks to Carly Rowena. I started to following her on Instagram and she did 7 day challenge, where there was a circuit to do every day. And I did it, felt pretty proud and this is how it all began. I started running, I walk quite a lot anyway, doing some workout videos.
I am not quite sure why I started it...suddenly I had the huge need or the want to move myself and do something...I felt so inspired..and there were sooo many motivation inside me.
Then when I had done the week challenge it showed me that you might need only 19 minutes...and yes you do have that time in your day, just put your phone down. After I had completed it...even though some days were hard, I felt so proud of myself after that so I wanted to do more!
I decided to search into videos, some pictures, some old ones I had written down...and I started to want to push myself..I knew I could do it. Maybe if not the exact exercise, then modified for sure. So I didn't want to give up so easily. Also forced myself to put strength to my arms and do full time push ups, in the middle of summer I could do 20 easily, it was actually such a proud moment.
I got actually so into it like doing it every day sounded normal for me, working out every day seemed normal...it was like part of me..But it actually showed me that I've been so lazy before..Why didn't I do it earlier? It's so simple, the feeling after doing it is amazing...I started feeling like it was that part of the day when I could have me time, I focus on myself, it helps me hold my head clear and it's just so refreshing...I so get it when people say they work out to avoid stress.. it is such a great stress reliever.
So...I started doing it more intense, when I had a little argument...and I needed to put my anger into something...working out was amazing for that...The bur-pees...oh, it was so hard but I put all my anger into ,my legs and hands and did it. I still hate them tho.
And if you are actually so into it, you want to do it, you like doing it and when you see that your body has changed too and your favorite pair of jeans are a little too big for you..whaaat?! That I think gives you extra motivation to do something and after you notice something little, I think you just don't want to stop.
But then school started again and things got busy, again. And I struggled a lot to find the energy...I did a little something but not really..I was into my bed and Tv series. Also my boyfriend asked me several times "So hows your working out going?" Like he knew how much I did and loved it. Yeah well, let's not talk about it :d
Then because I say all the time I am fat he challenged me to do 1 month challenge, 100 squats and abs every day. I think it was around December. And I think he didn't expect that, but I was like "Fuck it I am gonna do it!" And I did it! It was a bit annoying..but well. And I did some progress and at some days I did some extra workouts as well and with that I kindaaa realized I was fatter than I was in the summer and it took me down. Then me and my bf had a little spa weekend coming up...trust me I had a massive motivation to move myself. And I did. It was in March, and I did get fitter.
School got hard again, but time to time I still found time to workout and I think since that I´ve been pretty into it. And I've been loving it. And I have gained so much confidence, I love walking around in my underwear, I love looking at myself. I´ve gottes arm muscles that I love touching and seeing that houuly, I've never seen you. I still don't like my thighs tho, haha but we'll get there :d And my belly..that used to be bigger, I can see the abs if I tense. I love wearing just sports bra..That is something that makes me want to move even more. Because it gives me confidence and happiness like anything else.
Also in school, I had to do 100 m run. And I think I was second in my glass. My teacher was surprised and I was amazed, but funny thing is my start when a bit wrong so I know I could actually do even better. But then people were away and me and 3 girls went to Tallinn's school competition with that...I was there, doing practise my babes saw it one day as well and told to my bff that he has never seen me running so fast and that he was proud. And I was proud. Sadly I ended up with an injury...So I couldn't normally move myself for like 2 weeks, and it broke me. I got so stressed because of that, I wanted to move myself. And then one day my bf took me out on a 10 km bike ride, got a cramp but after this day I was like "Fuck it, I might get hurt, but I going to fight trought it, because I want to move myself"
And now it's summer. I am all good, try to move myself every day, or every other day. If I am busy then some quick 20 minute HIT workout, or just some abs or something diffrent.
So I think I can say that I've fell in love with working out..yes, I admit it might be and probably is some kind of wave, that I will leave if things get hectic again but...as for now I am so happy that I started moving myself..It actually feels so great, so strong and makes me feel happy!
Seriously moving yourself seems hard, but once when you do it and when you actually finish a workout...the feeling is incredible. It really does make me so much more happier :)
“Wow, I really regret that workout – Said No One Ever. ... “
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